Sunday, June 5, 2016

How I Won the Battle over My Depression


I am one of those individuals that took heavy anti-depression medications for years, with little to no results. For me, my depression has been a debilitating condition that caused me to do nothing, and experience virtually no life at all. After spending years of following the doctor’s advice, I finally took the problem into my own hands, and change my life for the better. This is how I have won my battle over my depression.


For well over a decade, I suffered with ongoing depression. There were times when it was worse than others, but it was always there. I felt the sensation inside me of total emptiness, and being all alone. The helplessness I felt was intense, and it appeared as though nothing I would ever do could ever make myself feel better again.


It began when I was a child, and my parents took me to the doctor to find out what was wrong. The doctor said I had clinical depression, and immediately put me on anti-depression medications. The outcome was not good. I felt more depressed than ever before, and desperately wanted to stop taking the medication altogether.


I began researching online of alternative methods of curing depression and found that I could take positive steps to alter my behavior and how my body responded to the environment, and the foods I consumed. Living at home with family, it was challenging to change my diet, but I started becoming extremely picky on whatever I put in my mouth.

I started exercising every day without fail. I first began walking just a couple of miles, and found it to be quite challenging. Over time I was walking 6 miles a day, and was losing a lot of weight. I was soon light enough that I could start jogging, without damaging my joints. Becoming slimmer, I was feeling better about myself and certainly less depressed.


Because I was thinner, feeling better and certainly had more energy, I was attracting more people to my social circle. I was gathering new friends that wanted to hang out around me because I was happy all the time. I recognized that it had been a long time since I was feeling depressed, and would only slip back into that sensation when someone would say some offhanded remark, or try to make me feel bad about myself.


I recognize that their ill words, directed as a knife to my heart, were simply their own reaction of their low self-esteem. I created a shield around myself that protected me from the further impact of their harsh words and ill feelings. In time, I was able to completely circumvent the outside forces and my inner feelings that had caused me to produce my own levels of depression.


I am now in a state of mind where my depression no longer exists. There are still times that I feel bad, but I do not feel depressed. I realize that I have control over my actions and feelings, and certainly the thoughts that I produce in my head. My battle with my depression is finally over and I am living a happier and healthier life.

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